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First To Say
00:50
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Communication can be a killer when all that’s said is noise and filler.
And all this time, I thought that we could change.
I will be the first to say that I’m not happy.
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So what the hell is left for me?
Am I the only who’s wondering?
I gave you my all, now I took the fall
My words are always stuttering
What did you need to make you believe?
You should have known all along, you had my heart in your palm
Did you feel nothing, or am I crazy?
I haven’t heard from you lately
So when you wake up, do you say you’re better off with everyday
I wish I could come home, throw rocks at your window.
You always hated that anyway
So spare me your sentiments, darling please
Your lines hardly ever put me at ease
I’m not the only one at fault in this
I’m not prepared to forget
The way you stood at my window with your boom box in hand
I’ve heard that before, and you just don’t understand
Did I feel nothing? No, I’m not crazy.
But I couldn’t bear the suffocating
So if I saw you, would you say you’re miserable with everyday
And if I weren’t so proud, I’d say these words out loud
My heart hurts just the same
I know you think I’m full of shit, but my heart just wont quit
I’m only happy when I’m taking your hits
Do you think this time apart could take us back to the start?
And over-thought could show what I forgot?
Please say its not too late
My heart can’t bear the weight
Do you still need me too?
I need this, I need you
Cause I just cant second guess
You’re still the one I miss
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Derailed
03:28
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Last night I said my prayers
For the first time in forever
I gave my piece. I had no case
Words poured out, I felt misplaced
“Dear god, I make myself so sick
With these mistakes you cant fix quickly
I couldn’t care less about the way I feel,
Fucked up the things I knew were real”
You’ve got such a way with words
Especially the ones that cut the worst
Listen up; I need to spell this out
I’ve got half a mind to just get out
I’ve been derailed and I’ve lost sight
She said, “How do you even sleep at night?”
I’ve got no words left to say
I know you won’t hear them anyway
So here I am
Waiting for you to break down and
Say my name
And tell me that good things will come my way
We said some words we can’t take back
An open wound, a heart attack
Tell me, is this everything you hoped that it would be?
Are you still happy now?
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Sick
03:32
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The room starts spinning
You make your way to the door
As you try to make your way back home
But you can’t remember anymore
You said, “This is the last time I swear”
But life’s too short to tell yourself the truth
Bottles clink, you pour a drink
This taste, so sweet, wont make the problems sink away
They won’t sink away
This spinning room don’t revolve around you, you know
You’ve got so much to learn, and not to prove
There’s more than what’s in front of you
Hold on to what you can’t afford to lose
I’m sick
Just put your words back where they belong
They’ve got no place being in this song
You’re sick
But in a very different sense, you’ve been this way for far too long
And talk won’t make it all just go away
It won’t go away
Solo cup is more than a clever name
When you choose to play this lonely game
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5. |
Would You Kindly
03:34
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So now I’m waiting
For bullshit lined with reasoning
I guess that’s where we have this disconnect
And that’s the way it always seems to go
Anger felt in words you said
I can’t forget the reasons why it had to end this way.
I always thought you would be here ‘til the end
I knew you’d cross your fingers well behind your back
And I would wait.
We both know I don’t deserve this
But when these signs point to you
My heart and head both can’t choose
Retrace steps in those nights you missed
Remember all that you swore
You’re slipping through my hands and out that door
So lets take some time for ourselves
‘Cause time spent together always hits below the belt
I’d rather be alone
Than take your shit, you’re always hiding behind the phone
Retrace the footsteps over the same old lines
You said you’re better off and that’s just fine
I know its true, I couldn’t ask that of you
Coming through for me is what you never do.
And sometimes I place my faith in things you don’t mean
So where does that leave me?
If all I ever was was second best,
Then why should you feel the need to turn your head?
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Action/Reaction
03:44
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So you did it to yourself again, its not the first time
I’ve spent too many nights driving home before the sunrise
This must be worth it to me
I want to say, “I wish you well”, but I can’t get myself to say it
It hasn’t been easy to cut the ties
You live a life full of tattered lies.
Begging you for your attention, I was wasting my time
Those who throw dirt are sure to lose ground
And here we are, we’ve lost it
I can’t see the truth from here when you’re so consumed by lies
Please understand, I can’t go on
No, there is no way I could try
I thought I’d get a reaction.
And its just another night making the call between what’s wrong and right
Could a phone call shed some much needed light on the situation?
Because its losing my attention
If there’s one thing you should know,
You can’t neglect things you expect to grow
And I’m staring off again. What’s the best way to share these words in my head?
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7. |
Pointing Fingers
03:42
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It’s been a long time coming
And I can see by the look in your eyes
I wont like what you have to say
So tell me what went wrong
It hasn’t felt the same in so long
Building walls with these phone calls
Setting myself up to take this fall
Don’t point your finger
Never did I say to let this go
I’m leaving you here
When you feel the same just let me know
Hands shaking
The time we’re wasting
It took so long for me to see
I can’t put up with this
Tonight it’ll be me that you’ll miss
And this is the last thing you said to me
“Don’t let the door hit you on your way out”
What a funny time to start looking out for me
I’m moving on and moving out
And you’ll miss me I have no doubt
That’s something that will never ever change
If you don’t want this right now
Would you want it for the rest of your life?
At this rate, I’ll be going it alone
You don’t know how this feels.
You’re moving on, and I’ll be fine
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“Chin up, chin up” she said to me,
Those words are easier to speak
Putting them to use is something else
I'm tired of these long drives home,
But I make them so I’m not alone
I guess this loner life suits me just fine
Wipe that smile off your face,
That's never been your style
This is something I can't replace
These things will take a while
These headaches come in double time
And they’re getting worse with every line.
A pounding in my head to match my chest
Good news comes few and far between
When you say goodbye to everything
But bad luck has a way of holding on
Close your eyes, count to ten
And you better not act surprised when
Happiness becomes so out of reach
This unsuccessful feeling inside is just a habit of mine
It’s always robbing me blind
Of my dignity, and I never can help but get invested in this.
You know me better than this
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9. |
Annapolis
03:41
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So what led you to believe that things would be so easy?
You’ve tied my hands but I still pick you apart.
For what it’s worth I tried my best to everything.
Are you listening to me?
As my taillights fade will you still be the same?
Across state lines at least a thousand times now,
A state of mind where I shouldn’t be.
I’ve had my doubts.
You always said we just have to believe.
We’re making this harder then it needs to be.
Holding onto something, that only feels like nothing.
So explain to me what I already know,
We can’t keep this up when you always go.
It’s been my only thought for the longest time,
And I still can’t make up my mind.
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10. |
Remember Me
03:33
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You said, "I'm sorry but don't wait for me."
If my feelings show, I won't be strong enough to let you go.
Well I'm in love with this thought of something we could be.
Your words play games while my heart make believes.
I know you say you're far from perfect. (Make believe the truth)
I hear your voice it all seems worth it.
Will this year change anything?
Will you remember me?
A face from your memories.
Where will you stand on everything?
Maybe you'll finally see.
That you're worth discovering.
A number to a face I'll be.
Castaway.
I'm used to it so that’s the way it stays.
So I'll step back and let you see.
Growing Pains.
I know I'm on your mind so who's to blame?
Or am I going insane?
If I could pretend.
I would run.
A life of reactions to the battle that you won.
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11. |
Time At Sea
04:00
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It's the simple things, that don't come so easily.
There's no sympathy, my mind got in the way. Numbing all the pain.
You left no faith in me, a story best left untold, my grip’s losing hold.
When there's nothing left to say
It's been raining here for days.
When can I be
Part of these memories
That only I can see
A ghost that I believe.
Be rid of this apathy,
Held down by gravity
Like my apologies.
So how'd I get this way?
It's all still haunting me.
Wasting time at sea.
I've still gone missing.
Out of respect for ourselves, I need some time to think alone.
My heads full of guilt, its just another stepping stone.
But I can't blame myself, or put it all on you.
Even though it's the easier thing to do.
So who is wrong in this?
I just hid my ignorance.
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12. |
3435
03:41
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You left me sitting in the driveway
Headlights on your house so you knew I wasn’t leaving
You said words I never thought I’d be hearing
All along I could tell that you were
Gearing towards another man,
Then they told you “Run away while you can”
Never understanding what I meant when I said
That it was over before it began
‘Cause history repeats itself
There you go. Here I stand
Explain so I understand
Never saw the option of getting out while you can
Promise me you still remember who was stronger
You gave in so easily
I’m smarter now if age forgives me.
The truth behind it all, I noticed your mistakes
I lost myself when I saw you weren’t perfect
Where you lay your head makes me so nervous
But I'm left living with the
Regret of where you've been, who you are, or who you did.
Stop acting like a damn kid, there's no telling what lies ahead.
So keep my stuff and don’t talk to me again.
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